Trevor's Adventures! :D

Hi Internet,

I'm enjoying some R&R out here. Visiting some friends and all that. Back soon for cray adventures.

This new laptop is quite awesome. Wireless Internet is sweet. Can't believe how many places have net access.

cya all

Well finally some good news to kick start this winter upcomming. I've been making by the past few years out here knowing there was a valuable chunk of dirt up in princeton next to the river. I really shouldn't have encouraged throwing it away so hastily but someone wanted to give 83k ( /2...damn! lol) to take it off our hands.

So I know this will set me for the year and possibly longer. My dad thinks I should buy a truck for 15k but I found that a bit excessive. Shiny and new would be nice but old and useful (x5 old vs 1 new, 1 breaks, 4 left).

I'm not gonna get into plans of GC juuuust yet but I know it's there. Gonna straighten out my life's direction and sail for the open seas of freedom and bills paid. knowing I'll be taken care of hasen't been on the negotiating table before. It's like Christmas times 10. The lack of a working pc atm kinda sucks but I can wait till the 18th.

Although I really liked the property I wasen't going to get married to it or anything. I'd rather have some cash to spread around to make my life more comfortable. It'll be interesting to see if I can carry the ball after it's been passed to me. Could always go on a big (very big) spree and just have a blast. I know it won't happen but still fun to dream.

Speaking of....my dreams have been really weird lately. I start breaking habits and routines and I get cute girls in my dreams. Always nice.

Anyways if any friends worry bout me they can be relieved that at least I'm somewhat lucky and I'm doing alright. Candice, yer prob the only one left on here anymore. haha. (who's getting a presant? *looks in her direction...lmao).

Long as that light is at the end of the tunnel I can endure life not throwing me a bone and leaving me out in the cold. Hey btw, to any random people readin you can build a snow home by digging a hold/small cave and not freeze (as much). That might save yer life someday random people! I used to do that when I was younger at home. Got like -40 degrees c sometimes but I just did it for fun (making snow homes). To anyone having a rough go /w life use whatever you've got to turn yer boat around. Sometimes the rocky road is the only one not left under water when the tides come in. Could always be starving. yaaaaaaaaay food! = D

Most of the important things can't be bought. (I mean after a place and some food). Nothing I want anyways.  It's usually the people that matter most and it doesn't always work out the way you imagine it to. Not to mention distance and lack of understanding. Ah well, can't look back. Gotta push on and live for me instead of friends.  I'm sure I'll make more (not gonna tip my hand I have anything to attract the wrong kind of friends tho.....I rather enjoy dressing in a plain t and jeans and letting people just see me). I'm sure it'd be nice to have good clothes to wear (eventually) but I would love to just dump 5-10k on my dental and really fix myself up.

ok ok, even thou the nicest and best things aren't bought....here's the list so far..... (lmfao):

-dental
-glasses
-laptop
-3-4 comps for home
-bit of stuff to resell at gc or cs (haven't decided which is my strongest hand yet. advise is welcomed)
-small truck (think small toyota.....nothing as big as the f150 fords or anything. something cheap on gas and can move whatever is needed (but w/o dumping 15k)
-some new clothes (still plain stuff, just a few more of what I have)
-pay off a few debts...bout 1200 or so.

and then it's pretty much live like I've got nothing so I can hang onto whatever I've got. Doesn't change anything cept gives a few chips to ante up. Decent head start for life's costs tho.

I think I'm about done /w Surrey. Might be time for a good move to a full house. Don't care for upstairs neighbours very much. Guess we'll see what happens. Nothing like getting some nitro in the tank tho. VRRRRROOOOOMMMMMMM

*happy dance*

hey all,

just good news to celebrate. life is making an upturn atm. my dad got a hold of the realtor for the property i was given years ago. fiiiiinally some capital to start computerswag.com or anything else i want to get. im prob dumping 20 points back into some kind of property but i might have 15 to play with (as he told me to spend it how i see fit). i'd never hear the end of it if i didn't put something back in but since i dont own a pc i might get one of those.

comps are alrite but not what they used to be for me. much more real life adventures in the past 6 months then comp work. im just extatic that i might be able to turn this into something other then "dirt" as nog might put it (see ds9 where nog and jake are flipping stuff and he calls it useless dirt instead of valuable property....i always think of that when broke and having equity just sitting there doing f*ck all)

i've definately missed some friends in my life but i guess it goes on. sucks that i had to work on so much this past bit (reflecting on life, working out issues /w erin, and rebuilding myself to be better, etc, etc). i figure things will work themselves out. god really hasen't steered me wrong thus far. sometimes when it's just me in my life (erin's at work or im off on some crazy adventure) i totally think god is hanging out. i hope god likes how i live and apreatiates me being unique from others.

so i figure a trailer for 15-20 points could bring me in 300-500/month in a consistant cash flow. sure beats spending my own money to watch it fall to "0". im sure i could spend 100k in a month w/o any restraint or self control (thank god he gave me tons of that). the waiting surely is the hardest part.

selling comps worked out great untill i let a pc go (worth 500) for 200 + 300 later (didn't end up seeing the 300...lol). ah the things we learn in business. lmao. well if trusting people (even a friend of family so i figured they were good for the front) is a weakness in business i'll just have to be firm on cash up front for everything. other then that sinking me it was doing alrite for a few months. sold a 1/2 dozen or so (but putting up my own pc to get it going was kinda a kicker as expenses + 2 things going wrong = a no go atm). thinking about getting a reseller account at ncix till i can get the business license and everything in order. then it'll be easier to contact suppliers and see what i can do.

i love how my dad thinks comps are a waste of time. if i ever get a ms or something big, im sooooo gonna rub it in (in a joking kidding manner, not the mean kind.....never goes that far /w us). i've always wanted to open up yet have never been able to due to either time or funds not being there. when i worked i never had time or energy. when i stopped working (for others, you can't REALLY ever stop working....less yer dead, frozen, swoon, undead...no wait...the undead still work...well you get the idea) i had lots of time but little cash to buy resellables. i've a few items but noit enough for a whole store. 1k would be MORE then enough if invested correctly i believe (/w tons of work done to make it all happen). guess we'll see soon enough (too bad it's not soon enough...hahaha)

another useless msn day. i mean the thing just gets in the way and a whole list of people that don't even use the thing (prob my bad as well since i rarely am on anymore....the no comp thing being a big part). prob gonna get a new email and waste my gmail/msn list. might just stay on email and keep off msn.

glad to have a place where i get mail again. moving in 10 days (ish). let the countdown begin. my upstairs neighbours are pretty rude. just parking in my spot and blocking me in and all that. really crappy attitudes and theres like 10 of them (huge monster home /w like 10 bedrooms). gave us laundry and then blocked it off one day so after some talking /w erin we decided we deserved better. we both agreed it was better then every apt we EVER lived in out here (cept the swimming pool one /w batman as out landlord was alrite). going right into the heart of surburbia this time. 650 for a 2 bedroom normal home. basement suite. should be alrite.

#215 on 104 ave was only 1 bedroom. way too small.
#123 same building was 2 bedroom and gary joined the party, also had a crazy lady throw her can opener at our door sometime.
#10 we got the pool on 108th. batman (our vigilante landlord who stalked dealers and thugs in the holly park at night across from our place) was cool. had stupid pool rules like cant swim alone and shit but he meant well. hated 3 floors /w no elevator though. and the lack of a parking spot.
#223 was alrite /w gary and bob but started getting crouded till they moved to van.
#224, a 1 bedroom, still had us in the maze-like apt. it was about 2 mins from the front door. up the elevator, down a flight of stairs, 2 hall ways, up another flight and through a few doors. just madness.
upgraded to an alley (from ghetto apts). the main road you can't park so you have to park from the alley to the back of the house here. sure can't wait to move. (i would NEVER spend 650k+ to live in an alley, no matter that this is the nicest inside i've ever been in for a home).

so, uh, ya, can't wait to move peoples. : D
steve, my car stereo tech is comming over so ttyl all.

ah how i wish i could just let loose on here. seems kinda a shame that its such a cool blog site but i can't utilize it for all it's worth. it's usually how it is /w me tho. things not comming out how i think them and ending up getting messed up in translation. often after tripping on my words i end up looking back and kicking myself just a little and wondering if my message is clear /w the people i encounter.

off again to the races. computer stuff worked out alrite but unfortunately juuust under req amount to sustain. learning exp for not trusting too much any more or putting myself dependant on others (who always end up letting me down). i've nothing against a stable job and at times have often enjoyed it. it's nice and easy to be the worker. let the boss deal /w problems and just keep going to the grind. i was really set on working for myself and will give it another shot when i get more of a flow of cash comming in. can't have it dry up on you. thats prob the best thing about 9-5's. each 2 weeks you get enough to continue working where yer at.

im sure i'll be less agitated when everything comes together in my life. this past train wreck of a year is being patched up and i'm used to being dirt poor so it's not like i can't learn to live that way. lmao. it's like building up this huge force to get ahead and having it blow up in yer face like the coyote. oh you guys know the one. strapped /w the acme brand "helper" items. then again i've met a new friend that's even more worst off then me in my position about a week back. late 50's, painter, nice guy but not a snowball's chance of ever getting it together. working at some construction site for a cheap foreman w/o the proper tools or safety air filters for the sprays of paint in there. can't afford to call in sick but missed 3 days last week b/c of a lung infection from the paint (and the cigs also. we do most of it to ourselves).

went on a huge bike ride yesterday as there isin't much working on sunday. about 3-4 hours down the hill towards the valley. awesome view of the mountains and the fields. saw some crops growing in the farmish area and thought that'd be nice having a field full of food. least that way if yer poor you still eat well. i can't imagine it taking up that much space to have "enough". for anyone thinking im on some crazy journey for super amounts of wealth know i just want enough for myself for today and a few tomorrows. citadel didn't turn me off working or anything. just made me realise that they wern't on my side or cared about anything i wanted. couldn't ruin my health for that. cash or no cash.

haven't rode my bike for nearly 3 months now since i got the car. the clutch got fixed few months back and the brakes were holding (but squeeking) and were finally changed and bled 2-3 days ago (ty painter for also being a mechanic wooohoo). now i got 2 cv joints clicking when i go too fast (or too much torque) around corners. kinda grounded me till that's fixed as i had it go in van once on me at 50km around a busy intersection. can't have that. that's 80/side. thank god i can get someone to help me switch them for nothing. i've always loved that about helping others (well friends, family usually sucks in my case). they feel that need to give and help out. i drive mr painter to work each morning at 6am and he knows TONS about cars and i know jack so i can learn alot. guess everyone has something to give. if they aren't giving tho, (and can) then its prob best to avoid those kinds of people. too bad im related to a few. lmao.

getting out yesterday helps /w the stir crazy....all RITE, i can go on msn....for......no reason. really gotta get old work people off my list and just make a new email/msn/everything. need a good refresh online. too bad i dont have my own pc anymore. i really dont like using erin's pc. i mess a setting and she overreacts and gets all pissy. not to mention if yer into a project on the pc and she wants tv (damn tv card).

ya the pc experience hasen't been what it used to. i dont game much if ever. just got music and movies really. maybe read some news or see how people are doing but anyone i care about either doesn't use msn or doesn't talk on it. like holy useless to have it installed. amelia really was using up the email. might get down /w that instead.


"Suggested Tags: working poor, working days, working late again, working late"  hahaha. thanks mindsay. always good for a smile.

get to look forward to moving (again) at least. sure don't like moving but sure enjoy the gamble of making my life better (not having landlord people that are a touch on the mean side.....really messes /w home life). bah. still better here then the apts. i can see progress...it's just painstakingly slow is all.

guess im done /w the need to write. hope it was a good read. :P

Hey all,

(by all I mean anyone left as it's been like a 1/2 year since my last post). I picked up amelia at the horseshoe bay ferrie terminal in north Vancouver. That was about a week ago. She hitched across from Ont /w a friend named Sarah. They went seperate ways and she came here for about a week. She left me with good notes on healthy eating and nurashing myself properly. What prob stuck the most was "healer heal thyself". For so long I've worried about helping others and have put myself into a state of neglect/back burner.

I thought it'd be selfish to put myself before others as everyone around me makes my life complete. I love the people in my life and the enrichment they give but she explained I can help them more the stronger I am. (I've often wondered what a pally lvl 30 heal spell would do for a party vs hell difficulty).

We made these awesome snack bars with about 20 bucks worth of material from superstore grocery. The bulk section had everything we needed. Felt like a chemist for the day. Made about 55 bars from 20 bucks so about 50 cents/bar. They do way more for me then chocolate bars ever did. Both chocolate and these things look kinda like poo but least these new ones are healthy for me.

Also saw some cool sprouts she was growing in a jar. Like seeds /w added water of diff veggies. Eating the small sprouts aparently gives lots of energy.

Also had some long talks about important stuff. I love good conversations where there is no holding back. I've only few people in this world I'll open up to like that.

Spring and summer gave me about 500,000 damage points but the good thing about being beaten down is that 9999 damage can only kill/swoon you once. Life 3 brings you back every time (unless yer banon or someone who can never fall....fortunately that's not me! woooo!) I always found that virus + weak would rock most enemies down (can't heal before 3-7 hp runs out and they are toast). *drinks an elixir* "ahhhhhhh".

Starcraft has taught me that even a failed mission is great for learning how to do things better in the future. You lose a few men trying to take a base/scout it out and you don't blink an eye knowing that the REAL force is kicking back at HQ awaiting the counter attack (def + off stacked at HQ wipes most attackers from my base then my counter is unchallenged). It's not untill you step back and look at where you've set up home base that you realise how silly you were. I was also thinking this morning of all the bases I've seen where the mineral workers are gathering money yet don't have a solid plan of attack, no real strats, nor any solid d against getting WIPED OUT. I prob have the strat, a solid d, but haven't tapped that mineral line yet. Seems I've been out of gear. Working is great for that but then you can lose perspective (they want you to work for them, not realising yer working for yourself.....for them as a byproduct). Far too many get lost in a job and its almost equivilent to drinking/smoking your problems into another place. Doesn't go away but least they aren't in your forefront taking up your energy/attention.

Moving again in sept. Going from a 1 bedroom to a 2 bedroom. Erin's friend Kaarina is comming out from Ont sometime this month and we'll need more space. Did the brakes last night on my car and they 1/2 work (air in the line) so today I gotta buy brake fluid at Canadian Tire and bleed them to get the air out. Thank god my brother knows stuff bout cars. Glad he let me switch them though. Good skill to pick up.

Speaking of skills I have been thinking of another part time job. I don't want anything full time as most employers will grind their workers to nothing and switch the broken units for other "newer" units (/people but not really considered people by employers). I always valued time over money but you can't NOT have money. Also need some cash to jump my 1st plane this summer's end. Bout 250 bucks and I can't back out on my bro. I totally want to besides the point but it's his 30th bday and I really wanna do this with him. It should get my head in order to say I can do anything ELSE in life.

So from all this post the best thing to take /w you is that when you eat food it's really nurishing your body with vitamins and minerals from what you consume. Theres a reason your still hungrey after eating junk foods. You aren't yet nurished! (snacks, not meals....even snacks should be good FOR you, not letting you crash 20 mins after)

If you don't think you can kick pepsi, remember there are those that have (like me =)

everything in moderation...including moderation!

So no part time for Trevor yet. hahaha.

I'm like "so how bout part time boss" and my boss is like "sure Trevor, I know you've wanted that for 3 months now but next schedual for SURE".

Normally I'd make a big deal over it but I let it go. Today the schedual came out and aparently the word of my boss doesn't hold up. NEXT schedual after I spoke /.w her. Guess my word doesn't always hold weight so I'll just stick it out for a few more months.

The only problem with working for someone else. You lose control over your life for 40 hours/week doing crap you don't really want to but you do your best in spite and hope they'll change.

So I'm sure it'll all straighten out (if I still have my job by then...hahaha....probation thing still) and I guess with this insecurity I have for my job security it's good to have lotsa coin saved up. Take my money and leave when I'm done with them. I must say I feel much better knowing they ca fire me tomorrow and I wouldn't lose much of a beat as I'm planning for it. Most just waste their money trying to make what little time they have not working better.

If I get part time I'll prob stay 3 days/week. I just KNOW she's gonna think I owe her the extra days if I go down so my days off will be expected to cover other people here (so it's not really a day off as I'm expected to answer my cell and pick up the shifts).

To all those working for someone else and not liking it I hear ya. Even those in schools have the same problems /w putting up with fellow students/teachers.

Almost done the night. This one wasen't too bad and the next 2 are gonna be sweet. I love this schedual for having 2 mon-fri days working. sat and sun are awesome days to work. no big bosses getting in the way.

sure can't wait till im driving. woot.

Faithless - Salva Mea


Dido :
How can I change the world if I can't even change myself ?
I cannot change the way I am ?
I don't know, I don't know.

Maxi Jazz :
I wanna take a look at the world behind these eyes,
Every nook, every cranny reorganise,
Realise my face don't fit the way I feel.
What's real ?
I need a mirror to check my face is in place,
Incase of upheval, fundamental movement below,
What's really going on I wanna know,
But yo, we don't show on the outside, so slide.
Just below my skin I'm screaming...

I need a mirror for my spirit,
Yeah, can you feel it ?
When I get deep, wanna hear myself sleep,
Not drowning, just tumbling around and around in the voices
Like a crowd in my head so loud,
I wonder what it's like to be dead,
I hope it's quiet, noise in my head like a riot,
Any remedy you have for me I'll try it.
Just below my skin I'm screaming...

I'm going deep, so deep that I can't sleep,
The pills ain't cheap but the bills are steep,
So I lick up with a booze and a slpiff,
Try to snooze,
But who's dreaming ___ this is win or loose,
Put down the drink, try not to think,
Let it go, fundamental movement below,
And yo, reality is dreaming,
Just below my skin I'm screaming...

...worth the download for sure.


..just put the ipod on at work when I started shift and that song played. I love that song. damn. got a call...lol. brb. ...and were back. woo!

damn. another one. lol

there we go. another small lull before a call. my fingers hurt a little from all my typing/mouse clicking but i think i'll live. it's nothing new. been going on for about 2-3 months now. ever since i pushed that paladin through hell in diablo 2. when your body says stop, listen to it. you can always start later ANNNNND if you don't you could be punished with pain to make the small pain look NICE (as in my case). my wrist hurt alot but it seems to be better. i had to give up computer gaming on work days tho.

work is paying alrite but i dont need money as much as i need time. thank god december is officially OVER. now the healing of my life can begin. i just felt over stretched december. like too many demanding too much from me. least today i can say i did my job without asking a single question from anyone (a needing help question, not a did you work on somone's account question).

i loaded up the ipod this morning. erin later said it was cool to grab a copy of her songs. i didn't think it'd be an issue and was glad it wasen't but i gotta do things in proper order tho. i think she already said it was cool earlier if i remember right. so the newly formatted ipod only has a few hundred but least they are all normal songs. was nice for work to have a good playlist when i hit shuffle. nothing like the looks you get when playing other genres people aren't used to.

work had lots of dumb people but at least only 1 fraud call and it was only a potential....and it was just a doc so it was just somethig i caught in the system and blocked out. ah if i only didn't care about the company even in spite of my dumb boss. i mean i see stuff i could over look all the time but i don't. i'm very fast, i do a quality job, and i try to have a good time while at work. most of the people there are alrite. the only person i really have beef with just happens to hold my job in her hands. lol. job vs principal. hmmm.

hard to get away from talking about work. i can talk about how my living in the shed is doing tho. i'm sure you'd all love to hear that from me. hahaha. it's going along good. i fixed 2 HUGE problems i was having. lack of space and lack of light. i needed the light to fix the space problem. i bought tons of candles (the long skinny kind) and have 5 around the place lit up in cool little holders. that helped clean it up enough to get the weight bench enough space to be used. did 15 this morning. i'll have a hard time matching that tomorrow. i was done at 10 and knew i wasen't making 24 (wanted 24 cause im 24 at the time). 15 seemed like a happy compromise. putting it back on the bar holder was hard. almost tipped it over. not sure how much it is total but i know it's really heavy for me (so....ummmm.....50 lbs? hahaha). i'll ask skip tomorrow. i'm gonna try to work harder so life seems simpler. that jogging one sure seems to avoid me. haha. i never get that done enough.

laundry is on the list tomorrow as is buying some plastic buckets. i need them to hold the laundry. it's all dirty and since i work tomorrow i should really stop blogging. ya. i think i might. i'll write more tomorrow if i get some time. im sure all you people wanna check it out. :P *looks at his empty comments section hahaha*. it's more for me then anything anyways. most of the people who love me phone me. icq is my 2nd fav, msn 3rd (and only cause it shows people online unlike email but email's offline messaging beats msn's online chat). if anyone needs the new cell # just let me know. i'll have voice mail sometime soon. call display just doesn't cut it the way real messages do. i love getting voice mail. way better then e-mail.

still looking for a nice place to live. i'll find one im sure. i wanna have it by feb 1st if possible. k. im tired. night all. hope my blogs are an enjoyable read.

hi mindsay readers...

...the story i am going to write is about what you shouldn't do at work. I got this problem you see. My boss sends me lots of annoying e-mails. My regular e-mail gets about 10/day that are from her. I made them stop sending me stuff it got so bad.

...well I was checking my e-mail at work. They give me one at my company that I need Internet Exploder to open...lmfao. like everything else. So I don't check this at home (I block the 4 spyware programs microsoft "needs" to run for IE to work, generic process 32, some ndis io thingy, and 2 others by using firefox and not needing ie). I get some e-mail about me being late and then she has all these other crap mails here. I start going into a response. I was done my 5th day in a row of customers yelling at me and decided to let her in on my opinion. Then when it was done I didn't send it. *add that to the pile of unsent letters of my lifetime...hahaha. man that happens so much*

I'm glad I didn't but I still feel she needs to do better here. My boss was hired outside the company so she's managing people who know more about our service then she does. Frustrating to say the least.

I guess I didn't send it because I realised I'm my own worst enemy. Sometimes I just gotta cool down and shut up. It's a hard thing for me to do. When something is wrong I want to make things right again. If I see things that need doing or fixing I like just going out and fixing that. I don't like people telling me HOW to fix things or telling me how to do what I do.

I find my boss comes down on us more then she should but I guess we all have our faults. So 7 people quit since she started. Not ALL left because she sucks. I know a few did though. I guess she's just used to grinding a lot harder then everyone was used to here. I heard when the company was founded that it was nice and family like. Not many rules, higher pay, high responsibility but they treated everyone like adults, respected the workers, and were just generally nicer (so I'm told before most of them quit). It'd be real hard founding a company only to have it tighten up while it grows into a mega corp that won't care about anyone but profits, a positive image, and thinking of their employees as expenses. Just grows colder I find. Good thing I grew up in stupid below 8 months of the year.

I'm really spolied here even though it's getting bad. I mean, it's not bad yet....I can coast VERY well till then and hopefully have something good by the time I'm ready to leave. Just glad I didn't do anything rash last night. Stayed the night at work here though. Hung out with Candice and Chance. I didn't work as I was off at 11:30pm. I started into the e-mail which made me past 1:30pm and then it was past the sky train time so I found it best to just wait it out inside here.

*flicks the annoying switch we have here for the A/C on the servers*

I do a little helping out but I won't go back on the phones today. That damn switch goes off every 30 mins b/c some cooling thing is broke. Pisses me off they don't just have it fixed. The orange siren light flases and that kinda sucks but it's the ear piercing screeeeeeeeech each time it buzzes that makes it REALLY suck in here. Day or night this thing now goes off.

but.....whatever. Relatively easy job here, sit back and don't do something stupid. (close call tonight....whew! lol).

Also took some nice pics on the sky train today on the way to work. I wanna open a few photo blogs. That'd be nice. Now that the camera does about 600 before hitting up a pc to download them I feel like a kid in a candy store. A camera candy store.

Although mindsay is cool and even btbc on gc is cool and lj has it's own coolness, I STILL prefer doing crappy looking pages that have pics with the text. Text is cool but pics AND text rules. Simple I know but that works for me. Like even blogs can have anything vs what mindsay says is alrite. I don't care enough about html to learn it but I see it holding me back from diving deep into web pages. Then again I see that not having millions holds me back from not having to work to earn 1/2 a living (as the other 1/2 your a slave to someone). My true goal is to be free of all that. Lots of money WILL do that. I bet even just saving here for a bit will be good enough to get me going...afterall, I don't require much. I try and stay low maintanance...

Hi everyone at Mindsay,

Just at work atm. My tollerance for stupidity here is losing. I'll need more time off to fix that issue. Either that or lots to drink...hahaha. Guess I can't be drunk at work ALL th etime tho so that won't work.

I had an idea today. It was for work so that if a fellow center calls in we could bypass us about 10 mintues and just fix the problem befor ethey tell the customer the problem.  brought it up to the "manager" I got and she was such an idiot. She went to the worker that was hired same time as me for advise basically. Didn't have a clue what was going on and she's in charge.

If anyone ever owns a company please don't hire externally. It seems dumb. Lke I'd even hire "bosses" to do a month or two in the lower positions if they were hired SPECIFICALLY for their boss job. Or at LEAST have them take a few calls. Ah the things overlooked around here just drives me INSANE! I love thing organized. It makes everythig go smoothly.

I'm gonna be happy when I leave I think. I'll work hard, keep good reference but I'm so out in the spring. Why work for people that don't apreatiate all you have to offer? I mean life is for living. I often think of how much everyone goes to work, takes abuse they shouldn't have to, and hates 1/2 their life. Now I don't hate my job, in fact it's rather easy but I really like being apreatiated and the carrot over the stick any day (cept some night I guess...lol ;))

So it's the 23rd today and xmas eve tomorrow. The boss switched my shift (as per usual) the day before. It's why I don't ever keep a schedual anymore. I used to plan it all out and now I could give a fuck about the day after tomorrow. All I got here is today.

It's funny how I really wanted the job before and now (because of how they neglect everyone) I am looing for my way out. I'm sure it's the people growing thing. As I mature I expect more. They recently had tons of people quit on them because they found better offers.

I'll prob make up some crap about a 2nd job in the new year and force them to only have me 3 days/week.

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So that was all the crap I've had on my mind about work today. Some good thigns include that since I'm working both xmas and new years day and eve I will get a bit extra on my pay. That rules. I'm happy I get to listen to my Ipod (bought with work money I saved for 2 weeks worth of working here) WHILE ON CALLS (as long as they don't start freaking out, then I either turn up the ipod, turn down the customer, or turn off the ipod to try and pay attention better.)

Xmas will be pretty bleak this year. I'm really looking forward to hanging with Erin after work tomorrow. I'l spend xmas /w her and new years with my brother.

current issues I'm having in my life include (but aren't limited to...lol):

1.   finding a place of my own (currently saving for a place that i don't have to share with anyone)
2.   looking for a car. a buddy wants to give me his old car he has but the window is smashed out and it needs a few hundred in work so i figure i'll just buy a new one, eve if i just borrow it untill i get one.
3.   holding my job for 5 days/week and trying to find a clean shirt. If I don't get SOME kind of laundry service done I'm hosed for clean clothes. I don't even have a laundry bucket as it's all packed in the damn shed. :(
4.   knowing that everyone ain't getting presants for xmas for the mostpart (anyone i forgot I'm sure you'll get something, even if late, as i haven't planned nothing yet and doubt i will other then maybe 2-3 people). i don't wanna be a slave to that xmas crap anymore. I might do up some letters tomorrow tho
5.   keeping my mental state happy. guess i just gotta remember that i knew it was gonna suck like this when i left and that it WILL get better. I mean, it's at an all time low. I'm sure it'l get lower within my life but as for shortterm it should be going up from this far far down point.

Well if yer xmas ain't going so well I hope this blog cheers you up by comparison. haha. Working through, no place of my own to hide away in (being a 3rd wheel at family's place is alrite but still sucks), and just generally lonely.

That's why I'm online. All you random reader people rule. I can usually find someone on my list to talk with and enjoy in their company. I very much like real life better but if the person is good enough it doesn't matter. They are the same on and offline. Some people just don't get into the online thing and that's fine too. I just love the ones that do is all. (best way to communicate is icq! :D)

307844784 is my new ICQ number if anyone wants to chat it up. I love offline messages as much as online ones (something msn couldn't figure out for the past 10 fucking years). I swear, if someone goes offline as you are typing do you THINK they might send it once they come online? Like are you guys at msn retarded? hahaha

ok, no more ranting about msn. They are alrite since it's preinstalled on comps. Normally I'd hate that but at work we can't install anything without admin rights and I'm not going to "give" myself admin rights. I could but if anything goes wrong they look for what's out of wack. I can install the odd program and might get some shit but anything that needs to be admin i just won't do. Best they think of me as a newbie worker /w limited comp skills. I think most corps/comps get nervous from people with good skills. From what I've seen that's how I see them.

Well I'm gonna go do other stuff...no replies for trevor just yet anyways. That's what I get for neglecting this thing. Was gonna use the other lj one but I forgot the pass and gotta work at that. So many things to remember.

Hope you all like Nine Inch Nails....

God money I’ll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to.
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don’t want everything he wants it all.

No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.

Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.

God money’s not looking for the cure.
God money’s not concerned with the sick among the pure.
God money let’s go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money’s not one to choose
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.

Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.

Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.

Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.

You know who you are.

im sure www.piratebay.org has a copy fo it or kazaalite.

Well this was fun, the second one kinda freaked me out some but I'm unstable atm anyways. I can't trust myself or anything I think or feel for the next few weeks. Rocky roads still ahead.

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

wonder if these will work on here. If it's all squiggles you can blame the html for not formatting or Mindsay for not accepting it. haha. I updated it and somehow Mindsay got it right. I love you Mindsay. You fixed it even though it was another site's code. I think LJ or blogspot it said. Didn't give the Mindsay option tho. Just got in from my 11:30pm shift ending. Kinda bull that It's now 1:49am but I won't give up that job even if it's a 3 hour commute each day (1 and 1/2 each way usually, sometimes I can save a bit of time). Usually 10-11 hour days. If I had less days working I'd be happier but shortstaffed (short intelligence in the management dept I also gotta add) means that Trevor works 5/week EVERY week.

I'm happy they gave me my bday off as I had lots of work to do but I'm working xmas and new years (both day and eve on each, I believe 3:30pm-11:30pm on all 4 days). I'm grateful for the job so whatever. It's not like it's very HARD to work a shift that has barely any calls. Maybe a bit boring and might get me a bit down but SOMEONE has to help gamblers gamble...hahaha. Double pay b/c of the holidays will be nice. If your are going to work hard you'd better make it count.

I hope all of you strangers/friends on here have a great xmas and new years. :)

Trevor

Howdi all. I am doing a blog here for lord knows why. Guess I kinda like Mindsay a bit.

The iPod lives. I found this blog so it's the one that hears it. I'm sure it gets hits all the time. :P Shit I'm here b/c Candice's Mindsay is here. I always just like that link to people and read blogs idea. This one is alright.

My iPod. It sure matters alot when your poor and spend over 400 on one. That's alot of dough when yer barely making rent. haha. It somehow came back from it's oblivion. I'm grateful that it didn't die. All those video game remixes. :( prob a day straight of remixed video game music.

Also got a cell phone today with Erin at Metrotown. 35/month and after 6pm it's unlimited talk time. that's fair. I don't wake up till like 12pm most days so that's most of the time. Like I want anyone calling while I'm starting my evening anyways? I don't have a ring though. Vibrate works just fine. I don't have any noise from my gaim, why would I want it ringing? Nah, that's not true. I like certain rings. I guess just not the ones my phone has. haha.

Work wasen't that bad. I had accepted the am/fm and was going along. The phone was kinda cool I guess. Made my day quite well. The idea of a cell scares and inspires me. The rf radiation should be 2cm from the body the manual says from the fcc people. The car antanees it says 10 inches i think. not sure about that last one but ya the 2cm i remember in it.

and the upside to blasting myself with that (other then a natural imunity to harmful rays developing) would i guess being able to be contacted and contacting to anyone basically in the world with a dial. that's VERY handy compared to the land lines (where if yer out, obviously you CANT have a phone). it gets props for being handy as fuck.

work wanted me to get one otherwise i am not sure i'd have one. just not having a stable place atm makes getting a hold of me hard (if yer a retard and don't know trevor is always on msn or just doesn't want to take the call. like even if it's on vibrate then i'd NEVER have to answer. i can say it was on a table or in my back pack and it's most likely true. i'd answer friends but that damn work i'll say i dont use a ringer on my phone. bah. it's my fucking phone. e-mail is the best anyways. we all know that. ncix using e-mail to send weekly comp stuff was a good idea.

sent apple a letter about the ipod comming back to life. man did that rule. a cell phone and a rebirth of an ipod in one day (yesterday was nice also. gotta add yesterday in there. fine day)

i'll post it in another blog. i gotta edit some of it (not much. just take out my addy but i'll do that later. :P)


4am. k. i'm up at like 10 or 11 or something. early enough for me so that's all for now.

Yes that's right people. The blog is going over to the new site. Not that I don't trust Mindsay with my blog, I just find the grass greener over at Geek Collective. Man are the Admins ever nice to me...lmfao.

Anyways it's now:
http://www.geekcollective.org/bluetigerbc

I'll leave this into inactive instead of closing it down. That way anyone who wanders on it can visit me at the new site (instead of closing it and leaving you guys trevorless without a dear John note.

I am moving over here because it's just being such a big part of the work I want to try and accomplish. Helping people with computers is, and always has been, the goal I've had in my mind for so long now. The website http://www.geekcollective.org is good enough now that people can get decent info I can be proud of.

I have a hard time picking up on sites with some substance. Most of the time it's just trying to sell you something or sign yer friend up to whavever. We'll have that too but it's GOTTA be kept to a minimum. like REALLY. I've been to sites with 100% NOTHING of value to me on them. Like A LOT. Just junk.


Anyways if you check out the site you can:
-download a free antivirus (security)
-free firewall (security)
-free games
-movies, tv, etc using bit torrent (yes, again, free w/o gimicks)
-see lots of posts by me....lmfao (im sure others will post eventually...right?)
-candice as she shows up quite often

I'm moving all of my website stuff to subdomains of geekcollective. I fiigure it's free advertising. I hope word of mouth travels fast on it and it becomes a Google. lol. Stick out the tip jar and help a million people. Like spam but in the oposite of hurting people (a little) for profit. It'd be helping /w donations for a good work done.

OF COURSE IM DREAMING.......AND I DON'T WANNA WAKE UP! Like, why would I? Life's not made to be an introvert. I want it all and understand others do too!

So yeah, the blog is going to /bluetigerbc off the site and I bet I can even upload extra html pages in the folder so it's my blog/homepage all in one (with the backround automation Mindsay has).

I find the style looks so good that Candice might have to start selling off space for 5/month! LOL

Instead of all videogames (like a previous one) I'm going to just keep an area. maybe a video game lounge. like trevor's head but all video games "there". That way I can have other aspects also.

It also doesn't show who visited. Web browsing can be seen my Admins going through the logs anyways. No need to broadcast it (although it does show me you guys care when I see yer names, now I'll just assume....I'm WAAAAAY too lazy to dig through .txt logs).

I think the categories won me over tho. I can make any category I want and have clickables on them for surfers. I liked that.

anyways, I'm dragging on and I wanna post on the new blog so here are the 2 sites again (so you don't have to scroll up):

1. http://www.geekcollective.org - Project site to get free stuff! :)
2. http://www.geekcollective.org - My new blog site to advertise #1! :D

Last quick tip is protect yourself at all times (don't use Internet Exploder or AOL, use Mozilla Firefox) and if Google ain't no more fun download a Firefox free plugin called "Stumble" to get random sites of the category you like.

Happy Surfing all!

(and goooood bye fucking mindsay protecting me from copy and pasting in my own fucking blog)

Hi everybody! :)

Trevor here for another important update! Recently I played this awesome game of Starcraft /w a good buddy from back in Ontario. Man did he ever get quick really fast. We started as a newbie level of us vs 2 comps, went to 3, 5 & lost, back to 4 and then went on 2v2 people. We just were on fire. No messing around and just hammering the people left and right. We went through over 5 battles before moving it up a notch.

He was destroying lots of guys as we'd both send in our forces to one of the bases, overwhelm it and move to the next. Can't win what you want in life without attacking your goal with everything you have in you. Sometimes it's being patient with nothing to do, sometimes it's not waiting another single moment to do what you have on your mind to achieve your goals.

I've lost on so many good things I wanted throughout life. Things don't always go your way and it's something people just gotta get over. I'll never say that I regret who I was at the time of failing as it helped me be who I am now I and I really like that person. If something stands in your way you find a way around or through it. Blast past em if they won't budge.

GC makes me very hopeful. Gives me lots of wicked energy to know I can help tons of people by making one page. And another. And another. Like Strong Bad has t-shirts on his website! He didn't a while back. Maybe GC will have t-shirts someday! :D

I gotta keep focused on what I want and not look back. I usually get what I want, even if it takes a while. I've had some games of Starcraft last over 6 hours before their front line falls to the continuous attack I unleash. It's all just how bad you want it. Then again I've also had 6 hour games where I finally fall as well. Some things just aren't in your ability to possess.

I remember this one time I played this guy with like over 1000 wins. That's an hour/game people! Anyways I took the initial attack and he micro managed my guys to death. He was a very skilled played by how I saw his troops move. Because I was too into his base and not enough into my own I lost track of my focus on my build and it was all I could do to hold his counter-attack at bay. Then he really let out his best and all I could do was watch my line drop unit by unit. As many as I made he killed as he inched closer to my main base. Just completly out of my league on that one.

Life is a lot like the Starcraft games I play. Some things I focus on for years and they still don't hit. The important thing is to know that unless you burn for your goal as bright as you can you'll never get there. How can you get everything you want unless you go out and achieve it somehow?

Far too often I get fucks in my life that don't believe in me or my way of how I'm gong to do things. It's best to ignore them and carry on as if their words meant nothing b/c even people that are close can still not know what's going on. No one knows best for my life. No one's put downs are worth beating yourself up upon. I bet far too many people like myself take things to heart too much......DON'T.

Your life is the way it is b/c you made it that way. Yeah there are a few things you didn't get to control but yer in control now (or are taking control of your life by it's friggan horns atm). You lose control over your own life and of course it won't be the way you want it to be. No one else wrecked your life if it's a bad one. Least common denomiter says that your life is factored by YOUR actions/reactions to someone elses actions.

The difference between walking away in a fight or standing your ground. Perhaps it's a fight over something stupid. How far should it be taken? What if they pull a weapon and paralyse you with an unlucky jab? (on your part, good on theirs). Would have seemed smarted to walk away if you knew it would end you up crippled but no one knows what's gonna happen next.

I can bet if I avoid dark people my life will be filled with brightness to which I can't even imagine. You can only burn a bridge once (unless people are willing to rebuild it and most aren't). If they know it was intentional then I doubt they'll be picking up the pieces to build it back up. On another hand the ones that help build the bridges better and stronger then before are the keepers to watch out for and hang onto.

Just me ranting here people. Trying to stuff you all full of hope and happyness. :) =) ;) :D =D

Keep up that fight! Eye of the Tiger! Stay hungry. Keep the fire going else it'll go out. The world is your already, you just gotta claim it.


(....ohhhh....so hungry...lmfao...when will I be fed? That's why I'm so damn skinny...food is EXPENSIVE! :()

Well this will certainly be an amazing fall/winter for me from the way things are looking. I owe Candice for the hookup for work. :D

Right in metrotown in one of the big towers there. Really good view of the surrounding city. No dress code although the execs there all wear suits. Guess they make more money with them on...lol.

www.geekcollective.org is looking very fine. So fine that it really inspires me. I used to look at Google all the time but now I just think of ways of making it better. Content is a huge thing I gotta do more of. Busting into it takes time I don't have too much of atm. Seem after training I get less shifts so I'll do more then and of course after work if I'm not too tired. Best to give work the 1st priority since it's giving the money.

I think I'm ok for buss money now. Wasen't too sure there (like I had a week's worth but I had a week to find more) till Rob hooked me up today. Money sure sucks when yer out of it. It seems to be a rough value of how much a person is contributing to what society wants. Usually (but not always), unemployed people aren't contributing much. I see a few begger people the last time I went into Vancouver. People in Surrey at least have a place to stay for most. Some don't here too I guess. Definately a problem our gov't sweeps under it's rug. Then again, you start helping a whole bunch and then everywhere else in N america hears it and wants in on the help.

So many need a helping hand....just not enough time to help everyone. Corporations should help more. After all they have made their livings from society....one they should give back to...generously. Job creation wouuld be good. No one shouldn't have a job unless they don't want one. Lots of time it feels like only the lucky ones get good jobs.

Gotta get bluetigerbc.geekcollective.org for the new web addy. btbc.com wasn't the way i wanted exactly. the vid game dudes should be on there somewhere but maybe not the whole page...lol.

i like the personal blog script thing candice had going on. hope it comes in blue...

Linux is another thing on the agenda. I'm switching I swear it! It'll just take some time is all. Prob in sept or oct. I know it's far but I wanna do it up right. prep so it runs smoothly. Drunken penguin here I come! (Linux with a program called "wine", it's a windows emulator to run windows stuff on linux...incase you still need something)

so i've read anyways....another thing to walk that walk. got lost my previous time i went into linux. rpm's just wouldn't install for me. :( and xp had better desktop support. now the tables are turning hard core. linux is showing screen shots all over of a sweet looking FREE operating system. now who in their right minds would refuse? built by the smartest of the world in over 200 versions and any language spoken on the planet (version to version but still, there all there).

sometimes good things eventually stand in the very path you wanted to go on. Windows was good, had it's day, but now the Linux empire has started it's march. The horns of a new dawn are upon us. Pop ups, spyware, and lots of hack viruses are going to be gone. Better code by people who seem to have my back (at least more then Windows does, which is reason enough to switch)

I don't need people selling my info out. That's kinda twisted if you think about it. Even 411 is kinda weird. I realise it's useful and for business it's cool but Telus/Bell Canada/*insert your phone company here* telling you if yer off of the white pages you pay more for your phone is usually how it goes. Total crap if you ask me.

I miss North Bay and hanging out there. It was nice to visit as I've been gone so long. Checked out all my fav old spots/friends (although I missed Nich, that sucked). Once I drive I'll go back and do a better visit. See more family too. Didn't see anyone in my family other then my mom. My grandma passed on just in Jan so I gotta see her grave sometime also. She made great rasberry jam. Never had it so good! :D

Well I need sleep so I can be a good little phone robot. Hope you all apreatiate the work given to you this week. Can always not have the oportunities that you are currently blessed with. :)

If you feel like there's lots to do, it's cool, just take each thing one step at a time however you want. If yer stressed, change the factors to unstress. Plan for better things and they will just come along (if planned right).

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasen't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
"Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm, yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati...(ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
"Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ohh, this ti-me....


great song up at 4:26am. I gotta work at 9am downtown. man this won't be pretty. lol. Guess I should sleep some. Anyone who hasen't been to www.geekcollective.org in a while is welcome to do so. I love watching this site grow. Just rocks. Can't wait till it has some sweet buttons at the top going across it.

Candice gave me higher admin rights so i can do more on the site. feels good to have so many choices. i'd like to make a nice program page for gc. the content pages are good but one with only pics would rule. no names, just pics linking to their site. that'd rock.

I'm glad I'm working today because then if the site starts costing lots in traffic costs, we can keep it running with more cash and then get into making some money from it to cover the costs.....(online hardware selling here i come)

anyways, night all. hope your lives are doing good.

Well it's about that time. I've cleaned up a lot of the house here but my pc is getting junked up quite a bit. I need ot build up my neglected website more and sort out all my bookmarks.

Also gotta work on geekcollective.org stuff. Tons of ideas there.

Today went well with the berry picking. Got a bucket of blueberries /w Erin. Found a printer on the way back and gave that to Roy. He in turn smoked me up a nice pinner joint. What a nice guy. He barely has any herbs and still brings one over for me. I have like 2-3 bowls of herb left. I know I'll get more within the week or two so no worries.

I love hanging around generous people. Makes me feel really good to be on the RECEIVING end of the whole giving process. Roy really makes me happy sometimes. Not just cause he gets me high but because he inspires me.

When no one would help me move into my apt I met him and we moved my big heavy metal comp desk into the place. When I'm out of herbs (as I mentioned...lol) he smokes me up and reassures me that everything will be cool. He can't read or write yet and STILL has a job supporting his gf & kid. When I am at some really low points he really picks me up spiritually.

I get so low at times and "ensnared" as I'd call it. Like I "can" do lots of stuff but seem paralyzed in my own lazyness. The comp sure does that to a lot of people. Gotta stay focused, organized, and up beat! :D

If there are people in this world that you value, hold them dear and let them know how amazing they are. There is nothing like someone giving you props for just being you. Encouraging yer friends is important when the rest of the world is beating down on them. Who else BUT your family and friends should be doing this?

Family I wouldn't always say is helpful. In certain areas ya but you really gotta let their words fly by as you don't get to pick who yer family is. I've found friends to be more encouraging then family most of the time. The friends I have are so awesome but I don't have too many. For each person you call friend that means the pie of yer time is cut by another slice for them. Your energy, support, and even loyalty are all needed all the time. It's demanding at times. Sometimes friends can even hate other friends. That's always a crazy situation.

I'm sure I mentioned Erin making me that pie. Man, I had a slice of that and it rocked! A girl who can really cook she is. Speaking of pies I think I'm gonna get pie-eyed and continue this long, crazy blog.

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ah yeah! :D

The peaceful night time. 6am Ontario time, 3am here. It feels nice ot be behind on the hours. It's always on my mind since Ontario is always in my heart. It's really good but I think I can do better out here. Both for me and for everyone else. I love how Van is asia, america and canada all in one. Not all places have a city for each culture. richmond for asian people, newton of surrey for indian people, langly is where lotsa white people are.
...and of course it's all mixed. That's what I love the most. I love how cultured people are here. Some people are dicks but I see way more that aren't.

I'd love to see a blog where I can have multiple categories on the main page for different rants. I don't want people jumping around as much as it is here. It's kinda how my brain works tho, all jumbled into different things. Things and people comming and going all the time go through my head.

I really like this whole blogging idea for our society. For me, it allows me to let others know what's going on in my head. There's always tons of stuff and it's nice to get it all out.

As for the video gaming of the day.....well, after we came back from picking berries in the bush we went straight to Superstore to get some pie crusts. Of course it didn't stop there. We got some milk, potatoes (i love em) , mini pizza pops (erin loves em), and 2 dozen eggs (can't get enough for either of us).

So we get home and she makes it up like nothing. Even adds weird things to it that baker people do. I need to pay attention more...hahaha.

It cools but I wanted it to be a victory pie (the best kind). So I start up Starcraft (now left handed b/c my right hand doesn't like mice anymore...lol) and it's all weird playing with the left. I lost at least a 1/3 of my speed just in the clicking.

I always try and keep the "set yourself up for success" in my head both while gaming and for my real offline life also. There is nothing you can do but ride the current moment but there is always something you can do about tomorrow. When it happens you will either be set up (by yourself, the best person of all) or you won't (damn lazy self, not doing it for me).

So I try and make it so they come to me and I just defend anything they send at me. Prep for attacks. Pincer them in between 2 groups, cast spells on where they choke up or bunch together. All while my units are counter attacking (they do it automatically).

I of course made an 8 player free for all game since I love them to death. The idea of a risk type game (but in real time which is cooler as YOU control how the men move/kill/defend) but for 8 players in the game ALL ENEMIES to each other! Everyone gets a different colour for their men/buildings. Lose all of your buildings and yer disqualified and are forced from the game to leave.

I find defensive is better then offensive because you know they are comming and are focused on staying alive. Scouts see them comming and you can crush them half way to your base or just let them walk to your front door.

The other day I played this Terran (human) race and made like all tanks and cloaked jets (wraiths). Nothing in the game can defeat 15+ tanks let alone 50 if they are in defensive mode (seige) as they get long range and they shell anything before it touches you. Then when they just killed all of their units you unseige them all, move them outside THEIR base and then seige them up again with support units protecting from air attacks while they shell down their base and anything comming up to defend it.

As I sit and build a nice little base my enemies are all killing each other. That of course gives me an advantage if I am building correctly (which I tend to try hard at. ;)
Then one of them tries to bust me up like I watch them do to the other people around them and I walk through them. Man does it ever feel good to crush those cocky little fucks. LMAO. Nothing makes yer day brighter then to wipe out 600 over units with only 50 tanks and a few support jets. As they change from "i so have this game, yer dead" to "yer a cheater, fuckng haxor"...lol.

Or to beat someone with the same race they have. To know yer better with all the same stuff. Today I beat someone using Zerg, a race I haven't touched in like 2 months or so....AAAAAND left handed! :D

They got me in the middle but I ran to the bottom of the screen and rebuilt in a more secure location. I sent in flying units into the base and wiped out dependant buildings so they couldn't make any more units till it was replaced. Then wiped out his base and mocked him JUST like he mocked me saying "haha, i got your main base" and other crap. He left all mad because he got schooled.

I was able to hold his attacks AND carry on my own against his base at the same time. He couldn't hold them both and lost too many important things. Since he controlled his men so effectively using good micromanagement like leading my men into an ambush I found the win to be that much better knowing I bested him. I completly understand Candice's competitive nature. I love it.

I've had people do 3 on me before and I still crushed them out. People who shouldn't team up secretely do anyways and attack at the very exact same time or co-ordinate their attacks so cripple you on 2 fronts at once/stop reinforcements from helping an attack or even out and out defending their secret ally. Cheaters are the best wins by far. Beating someone who is not playing fairly always makes my day. Just by skillz.

It's too bad Erin isin't into the game at all. It certainly is awesome in my books. Put on some good tunes and just start laying the smack down! It doesn't get to me when I lose b/c that's part of the game. I usually get 2-1 wins and am at about 150-80. I'll check...

291-156-29
wins-losses-disconnects (too many means they pull their net before getting a loss, very low but people do it, some even disc you and get the win for themselves...really eats at ya but it's just numbers)

so ya, i guess a bit more...lol. Hitting 300 will be nice. If I kept my old account I'd prob be at 600 wins by now. it was about 250 when i dropped it for bluetigerbc on uswest battle.net.

Gonna go get that to 300 wins. I thin kthe blog is long enough anyways. lol

Well this blog won't be as happy as the other ones are. I'm currently looking at the world in general. 6 billion people, people treating the environment like a resource only to be consumed and profitted by, the land being lotsa for sale by real estate people and builders to make homes for more parasitic humans (so that even as we run dry of all the natural resources we STILL expand and consume at alarmingly larger rates)....

...just makes me sad is all. Like killing everyone won't even solve the problem. It's much bigger and most rational people would resist, heck, we give a portion (...lol portion....lmfao...more like 60%) of our resources to a government who doesn't care about the land more then how much money will it generate and pays guards to keep our system the way it is. If you went off and started offing people the cops would VERY QUICKLY respond to this "madman" killing people.

They'd think it silly to believe all the motorists are at fault. If it's legal, it's "good". If it's illegal, it's "bad". That's the way cattle need to be told. Thinking for yourself causes too many problems. Just go back to the tv and let IT tell you how it is. Ignore that it's set up by greedy corporations.

Then we have industries that provide us the flesh from chickens, cows, pigs, and basically any animal that tastes good.

I've grown up in this virus-like society. I am so ignorant that I don't even know where British Columbia (Canada btw...lol) gets it's power to run my computer. Just pay the hydro bill and my job is done as a "good" citizen. Cable tv and internet? Just pay the bill. If you pay for it, that makes it ok.

Perhaps this entire earth is ours to destroy as we like (and boy do we like as humans) but even if that were true and because of a natural evolution of the most evil creatures being at the top of the food chain (think predators....wolves, tigers, lions, hyeanas, and even anything eating another thing might count) we end up at the top so it's ours I still wouldn't want it wasted.  That's how I see it now. Not just used but used up. Nothing left for future generations because of our greedy selves. Perhaps it's like making tons of money and not ever having enough.  Perhaps we as a people will never quench our thirst for taking the entire world and everything in it.

"You have mettled with the primal forces of nature and YOU, WILL, ATONE." was what I just heard on somafm.com's groove salad. "sven Van Hees - Islamorada Fishing Company" is the name of the tune.

Gas being burned and carbon MONOXIDE (and dioxide but it's the mon that's more poisonous) being formed from the cars every day, every hour of each day and people "filling up" more dark magic known as oil (converted into gasoline) into their cars really bothers me. Because the cars go fast and look nice no one really cares. Block the roads and their's hell to pay. No easy way to fix this fucking problem is there?

But then the optimist in me counter balances my problems with crazy solutions. How about people who REEEEEALLLY give a shit starting their own companies. Answering to no one and not taknig favours to climb to the top of their markets (to keep their power of course). That not play the lucrative stock market (can you believe gold is just a number in the market driving the mining companies?). Stay out of the stock market because "players" who just want a buck will fuck our planet every time. No one gives a shit about the planet. Well not many. The ones that do generally don't have power to fix the problems. The compounding, ever increasing, faster paced markets of "goods and services"

(paid for by our generous, raped planet....yer far too kind to allow such an evil species to thrive. We'll either fix our fucked up ways within a generation or two or we'll fry in a hellish atmosphere where things start melting..... now when I say things, I mean like the temperature of planet Venus. Like 400 degrees melting.....where gold is in a gas state, where people would combust into flames instantly and die. All of us.)

I was told somewhere that there was some way of cooling the planet (Venus was the one being talked about) to a temperature where people could live there. Under 100 degrees, that's for sure...

That got me thinking if it could get hotter. Like a lot hotter. Like the more we pollute, the hotter it gets. The hotter it gets, the more we get A/C (air conditioning....something no rich person does without). The more we use the electric grid (and give them our money don't forget!) the more demand and profits there are in wrecking the plane even FASTER to provide that service. All services we get, all gifts, will always be paid in full by someone.

Now if yer religious yer pretty set up. God/Allah will make it better when yer body craps out. That's a cool idea and lots seem to believe it. Prooving it goes against the whole faith philosophy of lots of churches and temples. It's always been a toss up for me and faith. How can you believe in something which you can not see? Even then there could be an explanation for it....somewhere.

6 billion people. People all believing something different. It sounds wrong to say thank God for wars but what respect have we shown our planet? Fuck all. It's the fastest way to wipe out populations. I guess the problem with that though is that America wiping out Iraq's gov't (and NEVER forget that civilians in the wrong place at the wrong time get fucked. It's part of the predators' equation) is not going to help our planet any. If anything those fuckers are speeding up our doom.

It'd be nice to poison the gasoline/oil supply into a non workable fuel so that no one's car would work. That might....MIGHT buy us some much needed time to seriously look at the problems we are causing. MAAAAAYBE 40% of the problem is cars (we cause lots of problems, you can prob look around in your room and see tons of shit that causes harm to the planet).

The better idea I'm praying for is that the smart people who DO CARE will take action with their own companies, and let the market fix the problems for our planet. To find solutions that both:

1. Help people (so that people can give back money for said help....i know it's shallow but hey, that's our world)
2. Decrease the problems we are causing. Cars for "1" example producing poison air.

So the solution is for China to develop electric and hydrogen cars and force the American market to shut the fuck up and take it. Import cars will force the industry to adopt or die. Gas stations will by hydro stations instead.

Now even if it's not China, someone with enough power to make a car factory will eventually fuck the oil industry. It's not if but when. It's like piracy online for music, movies, tv shows, video games, e-books, comics, and various other markets. The market decided MP3 was a good format then BAM!, they got owned.

The music industry knew what it was talking about when it said digital was bad for their industry. The same as cars are bad for the horse and buggy industry.

Car salesman: "yeah this Ford is a beauty eh?"
Newbie buyer: "sure is. why should I switch from my horse though? It eats hay instead of expensive gasoline. Like it's already 20 cents per litre for heavens sake!"

Car salesman: "well you don't have to shovel crap with this Ford"
Newbie buyer: "but isin't the exaust poison?"
Car salesman: "nah, the wind takes care of that!"

lol.....sold! Easier on man, harder on our Earth.


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LMFAO! that about sums it up. I'd totally say white people fuck the most shit up but I also think that we are all the same, just the way the power structure is in America. In China I'm sure the average Chang is the same as the Joe over here. With both evil gov'ts being (usually) the worst of our species rigging elections to get to the top.

Thank God for education. Some form of hope for the masses. And the non sell out, planet minded,  entrepreneurs! Few and far between (just think how little the stats are for people opening their own businesses, then think of how few of THEM would actually give a shit about the environment)

I like how Mindsay has the last tag as "good people". It's important to not ever forget that everyone has good as well as bad. Some are even REALLY good.

It's more then just picking up garbage in the neighbourhood (although it'll sure make it looks better). Imagine if every piece of land was owned...oh wait....it is, by Country. k, well even further will be every piece of land being developed. Without the trees to suck up the poison air for us (which they do quite nicely, as well as give us oxegen...thanks all you awesome trees out there) we wouldn't even live as long as we have now.

Forrest "industries" bust up trees like nothing. The market says people need homes that are above ground and destroy lots of more trees b/c each person gets to pick where they live with their MONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY!

Money is the driving force for the vast, sad, majority. Fucking cattle I say. To be rounded up for slaughter. And to think they don't yet have liciences to breed yet.

I hope no one thinks I'm against society from this rant/blog/clarity. I'm pro working for our hive like a good little army ant, I just need to cry out every once in a while and tell what needs to be told. We have a serious problem for anyone who wants a legacy over 3-4 generations from now (July 25th, 2005). Live for the swarm. Part of our society dies every day as new ones are being born. It's nice to refresh the minds and let the greed die out along with the baby boomer generation.

ok, even I thought that last statement was a bit harsh but it's still kinda true. Keeping up with the joneses across the street is even a huge epedemic that needs to be fixed. It's our minds that are poisoned the most. The ways we think need to be altered.

That crap about what you can do for your country and not thinking of yourself is where it's at. Society CAN'T take care of you if you aren't taking care of it also. The Oil people shouldn't be shot like lots of people think, they should be forced out of the market of energy or forced to convert from governmental pressures. Better ways then to kill people and have their next in line carry their fight.

I was also thinkig the other day on how I have this blog on "you gotta log in to view" and thinking how dumb that is since anyone can make up a blank mindsay account anyways. lmfao.


Let the environment wars commence! If yer gonna fight for anything, fight for a future where yer flesh isin't Cancer ridden, or even better, melted right off at 200 degrees.

Oh right, you ALREADY KNOW how to cool down an ever increasing temperatured planet. Carry on then. :P